BLAH.

to all my dear avid fellow readers who actually do drop by at this page once in a while or EVER do, i'm happy to announce my love for you all !

reasons for my sudden dissapearance from the social world :
work.(most of you might have guessed my inability to ever manage time properly)
self wallow.
and lastly, emo emo emo and emo.


working isn't that all bad considering i am lucky enough to get more.than.whacky colleagues to mess around and pass boring sessions of IT work with. As so, i'm here to proudly introduce two of my most talented-crap-talking work mates that not only brought joy but also corrupted my pure, goodiegoodie mind into a devilish one.


Introducing, Jonas Wong Ket Seong. A retarded spastic person who actually resembles bits and parts of me.Along with hes ever so witty mouth we terrorise anyone who comes into our path. Pantries and panties go tipsy turvy once we set our targets on them. Oh, and not forgetting HE IS ACTUALLY QUITE AN INTELLIGENT person.

some random facts:

• he is actually a LADIES' GUY.I shall not explain why due to the risk of him sueing me in court.
• as retarded as he seems to be, hes level of knowledge pawns almost everyone at work and i believe he owns our boss too =P. i.might.get.fired.for.stating.this.fact.
• he has a huge scope of vocab on the vulgar field which explains he is my SIFU !

2 words. GILA BABI!


Ini kisah seorang pagan yang teramat gila serta boleh berubah menjadi seorang lelaki miang bila bila masa. tak terlupa muka mimik dia seumpama seorang budak kecil dan juga perangainya yang mirip budak 5 tahun.tak terlupa dia suka mengigau tak tentu masa .

Digelar "huhu king" kerana stail gelakkannya ialah "huhu" dan bukan "haha" atau "hehe". rakan karib aku semasa kerja,lunch partner aku semasa aku tiada pompuan hangat untuk keluar dengan,my-partner-in- crime ,chess partner apabila terlalu bosan ,rakan curi tulang ke pantry berbual bual kosong.




my super "organised" cubicle. the orange thingy on the left is actually a pillow.as ive already left the company i shall now announce the secret use of the pillow =p i sleep and drool on it on many occasions during the period of my employment .

OOhHHH! i even got caught by my team leader before drooling n sleeping like a dead log. luckily my charm and charisma may have caught her offguard! she even smiled at me !
hahaha! mr.charisma man!

Fungus growing all over, literally.

To begin with my really sad sad sad sad sad sad SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDD life after finishing my A -levels, lets just say whatever i had in mind about not having to study or a stress free time didnt quietly worked as i planned.

I stayed at home ,ALONE for almost everyday as my parents went to work, my bro to skool. And so to kill my boredom off, i went out almost every single day untill every movie "i watched,i conquered".Also spent money as though my parents were printing them.
Anna and the King.


NOT TO WORRY, the highlight of my holidays, a trip to malacca!To get there, we took two cars, one driven by heng and the other by sam. I have to say this *though i might regret saying it later on*, Sam is a great,terrific,composed,steady driver. And also no thanks to the "Impossible to shut him up" co-driver,Goh Yuan.lets just put it in a nicer way, he was a pain in the ass.(haha that was the best way i could put it)
To excite our journey up, he went to depths of having an Indoor.All.Action.Car.Fight. To the extend of wanting to wham Ewe Jin with hes SHOE!And not to mention hes-ever-so-consistent statements about every car that passes by about challenging him to a race . Yepp.

Well Yuan wasnt all that bad, im sure with hes croaky laughter he kept Sam awake and focused on the road .!Cheers to him!

upon arrival and checking in the bungalow, I found a frog and a more-then-amused Heng Hwee went on an expedition to catch it .i commend hes bravery as i myself am freaked out at its size itself.

&& THEY said "lets have TIM KAI for lunch"


So here's our list of activities we did in malacca:
--> Eat upon arrival.
--> watch Tv.
--> played Cluedo.
==>Eat some more.
--> PLayed Poker and got my ass kicked dengan HUTANG DI KELILING PINGGANG.
--> Pool splash no?
-->shopped and EAT YET SOME MORE!
As u guessed, the after effects from EXCESS OF LACTOSE FROM THE CENDOL were not all that lovely.

the main event of the night? the pushing of EVERYONE,girls are also no exception(except mel and hong kiew who locked themselves up in a room) into the nasty,murky,oily,dirty,pungent pool! and im not over exaggerating the condition of the pool!
Later that night in the hotel room....things HYPED up! and i mean really HYPED!@
foursome no? just look at ewe jin's horny expression! i bet hes getting the most pleasure under the pressure =p
here is the stoned Sam and the over-hyper Suet Yi.
and whats not to like about a classic old game of Sek sek sek bom bom bom.

AND THE FOLLOWING DAY,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

semasa berjalan-jalan...the girlfren,theboyfren,the gay,the bi


and for the last scene of the day, my car got extra-pimped by i.donno.who .
TADDAAAA!anyways, thanks for the lovely memories guys. =) will be forever cherished!

Of love

somehow i summed up my courage to ask for ur phone number and asked you out for a date on valentines. beyond my wildest expectations, you agreed to go out with me. ahh the feeling of satisfaction and joy was indescribable and cant be expressed in words.
here comes the interesting part .

while preparing for my so-called date,i somehow got all of my friends involved. as naive and inexperienced i am in this romantic stuff, i started bugging Moe for help.
so we made reservations at Italiannese(which Moe did most of the talking) and i had to actually plan where to park and how do i get to Italiannese. Boy, it was way tougher than memerising bio facts. thankfully he knew 1u at the tip of his fingers. Gazzilion questions swirled in my mind.
What if she doesnt like the food?
what if thinks doesnt go out as planned?

oh and yea! not forgetting cracking and stressing up to decide which place to go before i actually picked Italiannese.I reckon if preperation for a date was this detrimental to one's health i would prolly stay single for the rest of my life.Or prolly it was just due to my psycho-analysing self i wouldnt have cracked down on the stress and nervousness.

so minutes before the time to meet i had cockroaches in my tummy (i redefined butterflies to give a stronger impression im more than nervous) i checked myself and got ready to go.
THANKFULLY, everything went out smoothly.(or so i think).
and since then, my beautiful fairytale started.

As a quote goes, "all good things will come to an end"..

we started to distant ourselves due to exccesive amount of pressure from college work and personal life. different schedules and different class timing contributed.

Have you ever gone somewhere and done something completely out of character?Taken a huge risk with the hope that everything will turn out in you favour?
well i did. i even tried transforming myself for her so that the two of us can walk the path of life together. But sometimes, no matter how hard you force a piece into a puzzle, it just doesnt fit in.

I don't know why she never contacts me since then, but I know she has her reasons. maybe she is busy adapting to her new college life. or maybe she has forgotten me? No can't be! How can that be? How can the scenarios that have been taken place be so easily forgotten? The day I knew her, our chats, the movie, dinner, orange squishy mango juice sipping , the unexpected rain, the cuddle and every other tiny little details. Is this piece of dreamland meant to be only a dream?


so as hard as it may be, ill let you go and the memories we once had will forever be a part of who i am today.



talking bout love,
i stumbled upon this heart touching love story. it's a must read. =)


The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. Then she settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg. It had been a year since Susan, 34, became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. And all she had to cling to was her husband, Mark.Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all his heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength and confidence she needed to become independent again.Finally, Susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city. At first, this comforted Susan, and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task.Soon, however, Mark realized the arrangement wasn't working. Susan is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But she was still so fragile, so angry - how would she react? Just as he predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again."I'm blind!", she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know where I am going? I feel like you're abandoning me."Mark's heart broke to hear these words, but he knew what had to be done. He promised Susan that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it took, until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all, accompanied Susan to and from work each day.He taught her how to rely on her other senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat.Finally, Susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus-riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, And his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday... Each day on her own went perfectly, and Susan had never felt better. She was doing it! She was going to work all by herself.On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying the fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "Boy, I sure do envy you." Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year? Curious, she asked the driver, "Why do you say that you envy me?"The driver responded, "It must feel good to be taken care of and protected like you are." Susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, and again asked, "What do you mean?"The driver answered, "You know, every morning for the past week, a fine-looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you as you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches until you enter your office building.Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady." Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For although she couldn't physically see him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was lucky, so lucky, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe - the gift of love that can bring light where there is darkness.

Controversy problems & dedication to remy and moe also ghazal yoges sakun and the rest.

So, i finished my exams . And as a maniac as i am with hyper pent-up 1 and a half years energy i exploded myself on the basketball court.

Yea you might have guessed.
i sprained my ankle. badly.
to make matters worst, i have promised my frens to attend their farewell plans.(remy's going back to france and moe back to Sudan)
yet goh yuan's birthday is the same day.
crap! if being torn apart isnt enough, my dumb ankle hurts like hell.

Caution.! never be too hyper while ure playing basketball.

so back to main topic.

i still haven been able to find that true one.

im not vying for attention neither am i seeking for symphaty.

to remy and moe who i will not see after a long time. i wish u guys an early good.luck.in.life and thanks for your guidance and irreplacable memories we had.

the trip to pangkor,the getaway from classes, the not.going.and.skipping.classes to go to starbucks and cheers to the mischieve we bring into every class.

to moe's inacapability to ever finish his pure math homework on time while saving my ass due to ms.loh always targeting him .the crazy attitude u have just crazily ammuses me .the always careless one who breaks chem apparatus like the number of raindrops falling into the ocean.no one can top ur record .and to the times we skip class to just hang around and comment on chicks arguing which is hotter or preeetier. Cheers to your absolutely.unique.illneverunderstand. your taste in chicks.

to remy's always cheering me up and pushing me forward whenever im down and hes ability to carve a smile no matter what.dude ure a friend ill never regret befriending. the oh-so-graceful football u play and the genius of biology u were .to the achievements we had together ,the runner up for futsal and top 5 in bball due to the fact u were playing .though we sometimes have missunderstandings, i know u'll always have my back whenever i fall.

To Ghazal. my forever.by.my.side.no.matter.what.happens friend who manages to lit my at times gloomy days.and the patience u have in teaching me math and mechanics is unbelievable.
i still wonder how much patience u have when i ask funnily-retarded questions. and cheers to the time we had for 1 and a half years giving ms.loh and any lecturer a head ache.
you never judge me for who i am and always stand by me.

and also to Sakun, whom i dont have a picture of. the first imppresion of u was that when u first saw me you thought i was a gangster or some messed up dude! haha. wonder how my hair gave me such an imppresion. u were always the baby among the group. the cutest one among all and the no-nonsense person. i seriously enjoyod the time spent with u thru dis 1& a half years.

and to Yoges, the always-stoning-and-blur guy. you have a heart of gold.thanks for the coaching for certain subs i never liked.and the think positive attitude u instilled into me.u will always be a role model i look up to.not to mention ur slow mind due to *i shall not reveal why reasons* haha!since we all know =)'

seriously u guys have been the gems in my life. and i thank you all and wish u all the best in your future till we meet again. ill miss u guys and each one of u have a place in my heart. i cherish every moment we had .

Post-exam plans

My final.of.the.finals has finally ended.

im starting to laugh hysterically to myself(no kidding) just thinking of all the freedom im gonna get after all this messed up academic stress thats been bugging me for a year and a half.

So! i lined up my plans right after i finished the exam.

I WANT THE JOY OF SELLING MY TEXT BOOKS OFF TO THE JUNIORS AS A HANDOVER OF LONG TIME SUFFERING =P

First im gonna sleep my heart out! minimum 12 hours.

-> party like a wild dog a day after that.

-> play basketball whenever and wherever i like

=>laze around and stone in my room whenever i like.

=>fiddle around with my car. which reminds me i want a heck.unique.cool spoiler and skirtings for my car. and also chromium rims.

was wondering if anyone kno a place where i can get blow-up valves for my car(and no its not a sex toy)? please drop a comment if u do.

oh ya i never posted pictures of my uber looking super cool.mega.oneofakind car of mine yea. so here goes.=)

no car so yeng as mine one lahh =P

anyways after the final exams. all joy will come to an end. as tought as it may be, we had to bid our final farewell to each other. though extremely emotional, we managed to somehow thrash the whole of pizza hut in 1u with our wild.filled.with.excitement chitter-chatters and final gosips.

my more.then.a.lecturer person to me. thanks for all ur guidance and high levels of patience(not to mention tolerance) toward my always out.of.the.world actions

and so ill end this post while listening to the song kenangan terindah . ahh , i hope we all will meet again some day, some time , some place. keep your fingers crossed =) au revoir!

pure math? Was as hard and tough as a virgin's hymen!

so i started off the day with basketball untill all of us were tired and went to ABC mamak.


during our convo. thr...


park leng: eh lets go for badminton!


goh yuan: yea yea lets go.


me : (ok lets split this part of monologue to two parts)




my inner voice: hey, u promised urself that u will study for the last paper after bball!
me: ya, i realli shud do tht and not go and play badminton.
so...after MUCH pondering, i decided heck!! life is now! i will just go and play badminton for a while and come back and study.
so we went at 3. got back at 6 !
hahaha so much for "playing for a while".

took this pic on my way driving to badminton.cool abstract huh =P

oh .and so my highlight of the week, what ammused me the most was my inability to complete the pure math paper which i was so confident of scoring before the exam as i literally WORKED MY ASS OFF FOR IT!


*flashback* to the time before and while i was having my pure math exam.

7.30 left house to be there by 9 for the exam.

ok , so things didnt go out as planned . unfortunately, there had to be a massive jam on my exam day!
so i arrived late for 5 minutes.
sputtering profusely my apologies i ran to my table and started the paper.
i smiled to myself as i did the first question.
piece of cake.
started second question. hmm.. this looks hard.. ill come back to it later.
so started third question.. some silly retarded question demanding pure retard-ness from a person to be able to answer it..so i did it and got my answer X=O. and they wanted three significant figures, and i go what the heck. i just wrote my answer as O.OO !
thre ! isnt tht retarded of me? judging my answer is already obviously wrong.

so at the fourth question i got stuck , so as the fifth , the sixth and my sad story continues on.
unlike the past years. which was easy and friendly to do.. this time the paper was as HARD AS A VIRGIN'S HYMEN!!(ok im using it as a figure of speech)

i got all depressed after the exam. . at least a dose of Wild Hogs laughing myself silly at rem's house managed to ease my whatever sadness and dissapointment i had.

so now ill start with the interesting issue..





ok to be careful to avoid any flaming or blacklisting or the fact i might go to jail for posting this post. i will be as sweet and corny as possible for my 'love and affection' for BN.

HIDUP BARISAN!

i was so shocked at the time where the new price fuel was announced..
my original full-tank price was RM 70. and now with the new price mine almost reached RM 120!
hahaha there goes all my money. AND YET! "He"(not mentioning hes name as u all might have guessed) was cheeky enough to say "Malaysians now can enjoy the "benefits" of expensive petrol"
I went like OMGWTFRETARDEDNESS!

something to be proud of =)

ok so well the day started off not as we actually planned it to be.

lemme summarise the whole "kucar-kacir" chronology tht went on today .

so we planned a group study, ghazal,remy moe and i.

as usual 3 of us arrived on time left wondering where the heck moe is.

unsurprisingly he overslept =_=

so i became the taxi driver ,fetched him and TADAAA !

all four of us got lost !(not very uncommon though suggesting the people i was with with overly-progressive records of getting lost)

HAHa ghazal u kno i still trust ur sense of direction =). and remy the ever-oh-so-confident with hes navigator led us to yet another wrong road.!

ah well so we onli started studying at 2.30 .

So here comes the exciting part , someone which i will not mention his name stepped on dog shit after three of us missed it and pointed out to him of its presence .

hahaha.

due to exccesive smelly ordour from it i shall just post a pic without revealing his identity =P

as the intensity of studying progresses, the surroundings of my room changes ..

ugh exams .the most dreaded word to hear

been slacking this whole week with occupying my time with things tht range to sleeping,fool-ing around with another absolute-lynothing-to-do human,my bro and bballing.
i regret not spending time with my long lost affair with my mistress, ChemistryAlvls.
not tht shes not attractive and all, she just bores me down with boring facts =(

anyways running late for my so-called "group study".
group-outing or even group orgy suits it more.since everything we do excludes studying .
great determination i have =P

random pictures of my previous few years =)

six pack,six pack,six pack,six pack and then one pack

dont i ammuse u =)
thanks for the makeover liyana =D


below are some random retarded shots with super memories =)

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one sissy, one geek and one retard

Mumm's special day

.So my bro and i had almost conveniently forgot sunday was mother's day untill in the afternoon i (the saviour as usual) wished mum .

so as we were having dinner at esquire kitchen in carrefour(or is tht how u spell it) while waiting for the food my bro and i decided to leave my dad and my mom and go find a suitable gift .arent we sweet =)

oh and this is the part where drama comes in .

so we walked and walked and walked trying to decide what to buy.untillll we stopped at a shop full of soft toys.

the cute cj7 plushie was too cute to resist so my bro and i decided to buy it.

after buying it and thinking over it, we realised she wouldnt appreciate the toy's cute-ness.

so off we go again to find another suitable gift and found a nice necklace of silver.

after much bargaining *and my bro ogling over the store keeper which happens to look lyk a transvestite to me* (my bro thinks her bod is hot ) we bought the necklace.

after dinner after everything was over we handed mummy the present and alas she liked it =)

gaahaha arent we just sweet children =)

current *close to impposible-keepdreamingon* goals

proudly here to announce whatever resolutions i made for the new year were all failures.
can vividly remember what i told myself on the eve of 2008.

while lying on my bed getting myself cozy before i sleep ...
inner voice:i shall be more hardworking and be more productive in studies in 2008!*voice full of SEMANGAT* mind you i was passion was burning AT THAT TIME.

ok so i started the year with a the first couple of months being unexceptionally not-so-lazy .

as the months passed ....

while doing my math homework...
myself : wah so much work to do la..
inner voice: what the heck.! why am i suffering here?!!?!screw this! * dump books aside and jumps into car and zoom off to the basketball court *

Well, at least my so-called-burning-passion lasted for a few months .hahaha .
give me a book and ill use it as a pillow.
give me a question on math/chem/bio and ill give u the wrong solution
give me assignments and ill use the time for doing them thinking of excuses to give the lecturer why i didnt do it .

i TRIED ! But i cant ! my fave. phrase obtained after my more than lowly-functional-low-determination fren , Moe uttered the sentence lyk a million times in front of our math lecturer .
BUTBUTBUT..surprisingly i managed to keep a few goals still going rather strong =P
see im not all that lazy. the other goals i shall not reveal =P

oh ya anyway. i added another-yet-close-to-impposible goal to my long failed list .
--> making it for my future uni bball team . call me a dreamer with huge dreams!

uhhh..i wasted a whole day

while im supposed to be actually studying for my finals in two weeks time i actually found the time to laze around the house actually doing nothing.well , as in jalan-jalan around the house lyk i am lepak-ing in a mall or smth.
CRAPOMGWTF im Supposed to be studying .
oh well decided to be productive after lunch =)
but guess what , some little bird came along with a message that read:
" bball at wai seik kai today.pls confirm ASAP"
and i went like HECK! what the hell , playing bball for a few hours wont kill my studies .and anyway the bait was too tempting to resist =S
and so i jumped in the car with my bro and played my heart out .
oh ya the fun doesnt stop there. i went to goh yuans house and did a few math questions with him. and then guess what ?
MY LAZYNESS KICKED IN AGAIN!
crap, i went home open the pc and played a whole dotA match .
and now i screwed the whole day up without even studying for an hour .
hahahahahahaha my determination is ADMIRABLE! if anyhow anyone needs guides and advice on how to relax and stop pressuring ureself i bet im the "guru" ure finding for =)
oh ya, know what? im gonna go get a shower and start studying for tonight .
god bless me =P

my virgin blog =D

ok, the first time im writing in my veyr own blog after deciding to make one since im dead bored with nothing to do on a friday night =( due to some reasons .

First and foremost i would like to start by cautioning lots of (grammatical)errors [im not sure of the spelling or existence of this word either] . Yes i know u recommend me reffering to a dictionary but well yea, u guessed im too lazy to be bothered =P
And also yea expect some foul , stinky words to be thrown in randomly @@*rolls eyes* whats communication without vulgarity ?


ok ill start my first day off.
went college.
studied.
break
studied more
got scolded "cuckoo" by a lecturer
and the bad day list goes on ..

a conversation tht put a laugh on my face by my friends
remy : lets tell jaber ghazal loves him~!
me: alright * with a wicked grin plastered on my face*
ghazal : HAH ! tell and ill make ur face full of this mushy cheesy whatever that is sauce kit ate with his carbonara!
remy :whoa! cool down
ghazal: *threateningly engages into battle mode with spoon of mushy sauce in her hand*
remy: *uses moes hair, or shud i say head as an excellent protection against the liquid*
*War starts*

i shall not go into detail due to undescripable crazy human behaviour happening in KDU cafeteria . the people sitting beside our table looked as if we were monkeys or aborigins from some sarawak forest .

thats it for now =)tired and gonna go have my dinner