Of love

somehow i summed up my courage to ask for ur phone number and asked you out for a date on valentines. beyond my wildest expectations, you agreed to go out with me. ahh the feeling of satisfaction and joy was indescribable and cant be expressed in words.
here comes the interesting part .

while preparing for my so-called date,i somehow got all of my friends involved. as naive and inexperienced i am in this romantic stuff, i started bugging Moe for help.
so we made reservations at Italiannese(which Moe did most of the talking) and i had to actually plan where to park and how do i get to Italiannese. Boy, it was way tougher than memerising bio facts. thankfully he knew 1u at the tip of his fingers. Gazzilion questions swirled in my mind.
What if she doesnt like the food?
what if thinks doesnt go out as planned?

oh and yea! not forgetting cracking and stressing up to decide which place to go before i actually picked Italiannese.I reckon if preperation for a date was this detrimental to one's health i would prolly stay single for the rest of my life.Or prolly it was just due to my psycho-analysing self i wouldnt have cracked down on the stress and nervousness.

so minutes before the time to meet i had cockroaches in my tummy (i redefined butterflies to give a stronger impression im more than nervous) i checked myself and got ready to go.
THANKFULLY, everything went out smoothly.(or so i think).
and since then, my beautiful fairytale started.

As a quote goes, "all good things will come to an end"..

we started to distant ourselves due to exccesive amount of pressure from college work and personal life. different schedules and different class timing contributed.

Have you ever gone somewhere and done something completely out of character?Taken a huge risk with the hope that everything will turn out in you favour?
well i did. i even tried transforming myself for her so that the two of us can walk the path of life together. But sometimes, no matter how hard you force a piece into a puzzle, it just doesnt fit in.

I don't know why she never contacts me since then, but I know she has her reasons. maybe she is busy adapting to her new college life. or maybe she has forgotten me? No can't be! How can that be? How can the scenarios that have been taken place be so easily forgotten? The day I knew her, our chats, the movie, dinner, orange squishy mango juice sipping , the unexpected rain, the cuddle and every other tiny little details. Is this piece of dreamland meant to be only a dream?


so as hard as it may be, ill let you go and the memories we once had will forever be a part of who i am today.



talking bout love,
i stumbled upon this heart touching love story. it's a must read. =)


The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. Then she settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg. It had been a year since Susan, 34, became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. And all she had to cling to was her husband, Mark.Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all his heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength and confidence she needed to become independent again.Finally, Susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city. At first, this comforted Susan, and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task.Soon, however, Mark realized the arrangement wasn't working. Susan is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But she was still so fragile, so angry - how would she react? Just as he predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again."I'm blind!", she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know where I am going? I feel like you're abandoning me."Mark's heart broke to hear these words, but he knew what had to be done. He promised Susan that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it took, until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all, accompanied Susan to and from work each day.He taught her how to rely on her other senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat.Finally, Susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus-riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, And his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday... Each day on her own went perfectly, and Susan had never felt better. She was doing it! She was going to work all by herself.On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying the fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "Boy, I sure do envy you." Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year? Curious, she asked the driver, "Why do you say that you envy me?"The driver responded, "It must feel good to be taken care of and protected like you are." Susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, and again asked, "What do you mean?"The driver answered, "You know, every morning for the past week, a fine-looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you as you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches until you enter your office building.Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady." Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For although she couldn't physically see him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was lucky, so lucky, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe - the gift of love that can bring light where there is darkness.

Controversy problems & dedication to remy and moe also ghazal yoges sakun and the rest.

So, i finished my exams . And as a maniac as i am with hyper pent-up 1 and a half years energy i exploded myself on the basketball court.

Yea you might have guessed.
i sprained my ankle. badly.
to make matters worst, i have promised my frens to attend their farewell plans.(remy's going back to france and moe back to Sudan)
yet goh yuan's birthday is the same day.
crap! if being torn apart isnt enough, my dumb ankle hurts like hell.

Caution.! never be too hyper while ure playing basketball.

so back to main topic.

i still haven been able to find that true one.

im not vying for attention neither am i seeking for symphaty.

to remy and moe who i will not see after a long time. i wish u guys an early good.luck.in.life and thanks for your guidance and irreplacable memories we had.

the trip to pangkor,the getaway from classes, the not.going.and.skipping.classes to go to starbucks and cheers to the mischieve we bring into every class.

to moe's inacapability to ever finish his pure math homework on time while saving my ass due to ms.loh always targeting him .the crazy attitude u have just crazily ammuses me .the always careless one who breaks chem apparatus like the number of raindrops falling into the ocean.no one can top ur record .and to the times we skip class to just hang around and comment on chicks arguing which is hotter or preeetier. Cheers to your absolutely.unique.illneverunderstand. your taste in chicks.

to remy's always cheering me up and pushing me forward whenever im down and hes ability to carve a smile no matter what.dude ure a friend ill never regret befriending. the oh-so-graceful football u play and the genius of biology u were .to the achievements we had together ,the runner up for futsal and top 5 in bball due to the fact u were playing .though we sometimes have missunderstandings, i know u'll always have my back whenever i fall.

To Ghazal. my forever.by.my.side.no.matter.what.happens friend who manages to lit my at times gloomy days.and the patience u have in teaching me math and mechanics is unbelievable.
i still wonder how much patience u have when i ask funnily-retarded questions. and cheers to the time we had for 1 and a half years giving ms.loh and any lecturer a head ache.
you never judge me for who i am and always stand by me.

and also to Sakun, whom i dont have a picture of. the first imppresion of u was that when u first saw me you thought i was a gangster or some messed up dude! haha. wonder how my hair gave me such an imppresion. u were always the baby among the group. the cutest one among all and the no-nonsense person. i seriously enjoyod the time spent with u thru dis 1& a half years.

and to Yoges, the always-stoning-and-blur guy. you have a heart of gold.thanks for the coaching for certain subs i never liked.and the think positive attitude u instilled into me.u will always be a role model i look up to.not to mention ur slow mind due to *i shall not reveal why reasons* haha!since we all know =)'

seriously u guys have been the gems in my life. and i thank you all and wish u all the best in your future till we meet again. ill miss u guys and each one of u have a place in my heart. i cherish every moment we had .

Post-exam plans

My final.of.the.finals has finally ended.

im starting to laugh hysterically to myself(no kidding) just thinking of all the freedom im gonna get after all this messed up academic stress thats been bugging me for a year and a half.

So! i lined up my plans right after i finished the exam.

I WANT THE JOY OF SELLING MY TEXT BOOKS OFF TO THE JUNIORS AS A HANDOVER OF LONG TIME SUFFERING =P

First im gonna sleep my heart out! minimum 12 hours.

-> party like a wild dog a day after that.

-> play basketball whenever and wherever i like

=>laze around and stone in my room whenever i like.

=>fiddle around with my car. which reminds me i want a heck.unique.cool spoiler and skirtings for my car. and also chromium rims.

was wondering if anyone kno a place where i can get blow-up valves for my car(and no its not a sex toy)? please drop a comment if u do.

oh ya i never posted pictures of my uber looking super cool.mega.oneofakind car of mine yea. so here goes.=)

no car so yeng as mine one lahh =P

anyways after the final exams. all joy will come to an end. as tought as it may be, we had to bid our final farewell to each other. though extremely emotional, we managed to somehow thrash the whole of pizza hut in 1u with our wild.filled.with.excitement chitter-chatters and final gosips.

my more.then.a.lecturer person to me. thanks for all ur guidance and high levels of patience(not to mention tolerance) toward my always out.of.the.world actions

and so ill end this post while listening to the song kenangan terindah . ahh , i hope we all will meet again some day, some time , some place. keep your fingers crossed =) au revoir!

pure math? Was as hard and tough as a virgin's hymen!

so i started off the day with basketball untill all of us were tired and went to ABC mamak.


during our convo. thr...


park leng: eh lets go for badminton!


goh yuan: yea yea lets go.


me : (ok lets split this part of monologue to two parts)




my inner voice: hey, u promised urself that u will study for the last paper after bball!
me: ya, i realli shud do tht and not go and play badminton.
so...after MUCH pondering, i decided heck!! life is now! i will just go and play badminton for a while and come back and study.
so we went at 3. got back at 6 !
hahaha so much for "playing for a while".

took this pic on my way driving to badminton.cool abstract huh =P

oh .and so my highlight of the week, what ammused me the most was my inability to complete the pure math paper which i was so confident of scoring before the exam as i literally WORKED MY ASS OFF FOR IT!


*flashback* to the time before and while i was having my pure math exam.

7.30 left house to be there by 9 for the exam.

ok , so things didnt go out as planned . unfortunately, there had to be a massive jam on my exam day!
so i arrived late for 5 minutes.
sputtering profusely my apologies i ran to my table and started the paper.
i smiled to myself as i did the first question.
piece of cake.
started second question. hmm.. this looks hard.. ill come back to it later.
so started third question.. some silly retarded question demanding pure retard-ness from a person to be able to answer it..so i did it and got my answer X=O. and they wanted three significant figures, and i go what the heck. i just wrote my answer as O.OO !
thre ! isnt tht retarded of me? judging my answer is already obviously wrong.

so at the fourth question i got stuck , so as the fifth , the sixth and my sad story continues on.
unlike the past years. which was easy and friendly to do.. this time the paper was as HARD AS A VIRGIN'S HYMEN!!(ok im using it as a figure of speech)

i got all depressed after the exam. . at least a dose of Wild Hogs laughing myself silly at rem's house managed to ease my whatever sadness and dissapointment i had.

so now ill start with the interesting issue..





ok to be careful to avoid any flaming or blacklisting or the fact i might go to jail for posting this post. i will be as sweet and corny as possible for my 'love and affection' for BN.

HIDUP BARISAN!

i was so shocked at the time where the new price fuel was announced..
my original full-tank price was RM 70. and now with the new price mine almost reached RM 120!
hahaha there goes all my money. AND YET! "He"(not mentioning hes name as u all might have guessed) was cheeky enough to say "Malaysians now can enjoy the "benefits" of expensive petrol"
I went like OMGWTFRETARDEDNESS!